Seven Weeks

I am 7 weeks today but it's not a good day for me. I just read my last post and I talk about all these symptoms but shortly after that they have disappeared. The last two days I have more energy, my face is clearing up and my boobs aren't that sore. It's got me very worried today. I've been googling about it and things could still be OK but it definitely may be a sign that it's not. I'm trying to stay positive until I know more on Tuesday but it's really hard. Sorry for the bummer post today but that's where I'm at. Hopefully my next post will be positive again. :(

I feel ugly...

I feel ugly,
Oh, so ugly,
I feel ugly and nasty and gross!
And I pity
Any girl who sees me tonight.

Haha...A little modified Westside Story...

Yes, my hair is stringy and nasty. My skin is broken out and not good. None of my clothes fit me - I haven't gained much weight according to the scale, but according to my clothes, I'd say 20lbs is about right. But it is all worth it.

I also have very little energy. I mean, I get pooped after a 10 minute walk. I'm ready for a nap around 2:30 - 3:30 (which I never do) so by 5:30, I'm falling asleep on the couch (if I'm lucky enough to be there). I'm lucky that I'm not queasy so I won't complain too much. One last thing (don't read on if you don't like my TMI comments), my boobs look very strange right now, specifically my nips. And, they are sore but not as much as I remember from last time.

It's still over a week until my scan. Time has never moved so slowly in my life. It's painful right now. Tien's feeling it too. Speaking of Tien... he's been the BEST hubby ever. He makes everything so much nicer for me.

Six Weeks Tomorrow

Tough weekend man...Well I won't go into any gory details but both Saturday and Sunday were very bad tummy days. Tien and I had a great lunch on Saturday. Afterwhich I commented on how great I felt after such a good meal. About 5 minutes after that I was in shocking pain and needed to get home asap. By the time I was home, I was dripping in sweat, feeling faint and in intense pain. All was good after I got home and visited the bathroom (it's me, I can't avoid all the gory details). On Sunday, Tien and I went to the Easter Show. I thought it would be the perfect easy day. It turned out to be a bit rougher than I expected. I'm sure the nasty food there didn't help things and I ended up walking a bit more than I was up for - lower back tweaked as well. Anyway, that night I had painful stomach cramps with poor Tien up at 4am Googling what medication I could take. It turned out we weren't comfortable with me taking anything we had at home. Tien made me some peppermint tea and Echinacea/Eucalyptus Oil lozengers which helped a bit. I ended up with bad tummy problems until after 7am so was exhausted by then. I went to sleep and didn't wake up until my phone rang and startled me up at 11:15am. I think I'm back to normal now. :)

Other funny story....I bought a home pregnancy test even though there's no question that I'm pregnant at the moment. I've just had so many negative tests that I wanted to experience the feeling of doing that test and seeing it come up positive. As silly as it sounds, it felt GREAT to see it!!

Just a quick one...

Told my mom today and was great to see her so excited. I bought some needlepoint kits, of all things, to help keep my mind occupied on low stress activities. I haven't done this kind of thing since I was a kid.

I had my second blood test results yesterday and everything is on track and looks really good.

Next appointment will be a scan on 27 April. That will be really cool.

The afternoon exhaustion is my biggest symptom so far. It's still early but it's been pretty easy on that front so far.

Five Weeks

Today I am 5 weeks pregnant and I feel like time is standing still as I nervously wait to see if this one will make it. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow to verify that I am still pregnant and I believe the next step will be an ultrasound in a couple of weeks.

I don't have a lot of symptoms yet. I guess I'm more tired and bloated.

Tien and I haven't told our parents yet and we want to try and wait until June when things will be more definite. Although it's weird because I had to tell people at work and some other people know as well. Life didn't allow us to keep it from everyone. I did tell my sister which is nice to have a person to spill the painful day-by-day details. The painful part being consciously awareness of every second as it slowly passes by.

Yesterday I resigned from my job. I'll still work (maybe more part time) until the end of June but the details are yet to be sorted. It feels strange but the direction of the company doesn't fit my background and I don't want undue stress right now. Tien's been very supportive and will agree to whatever it takes to have this pregnancy work - even a huge loss of income.

Feeling good that this one may just be the one that makes it!!